Saturday, May 9, 2009

Before I was a Mom...

Before I was a Mom,
I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never been puked on,
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held down a screaming child so doctors could give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put her down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom THIS much.

Before I was a Mom,
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special if could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a mother and child.
I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth,
the joy,
the love,
the heartache,
the wonderment,
or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much,
before I was a Mom.

Happy Mother's Day to all the mommy's. May you all feel as blessed as I do.
(Photo is from when Avery was 1 day old.)

1 comment:

g-ma (grandma) said...

Did you write this? It's beautiful and brought tears to my eyes. I felt the same way when you and Jenni were born. Where does that kind of love come from? It's straight from the heart of God! Can you imagine that he loves you (Kraig and Avery too) even more."For great is your love, higher than the heavens..." Psalm 108:4 Enjoy your Mom' Day!